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Moment of silence

7 Aug

I wake up to my phone alarm first thing in the morning, stumble out of bed not just to hit the snooze button. I check my inbox immediately and find comfort in new email. New notifications and mentions on my Facebook and Twitter feed give me a momentary rush in the morning which could very well be my caffeine buzz. I ignore my body’s yearn to go back to sleep. I’d rather be checking what I missed in my sojourn in dreamland.

Sound familiar?

The addiction to being online is transforming into the new norm. For me, at least, I need to make a conscious effort to log off. One morning I purposely turned off the radio during my commute. Breaking that morning ritual was not exactly demanding, but it took some convincing of myself to try it once.

Why did I bother? I was turning into a news addict, maybe not a drug addict, but an addict nonetheless. I felt a sense of withdrawal when I didn’t check the news or Facebook for more than an hour. When I tried to focus on work completely, I struggled. I had to listen or watch the news in the background while I worked on the computer or talked to someone. I multi-tasked to no end. I thrust myself into that situation willingly however. Only a bigger distraction could grab my attention. The rest would be forgotten and get lost in the noise.

I realized the distractions and chatter became deafening. It silenced my own thoughts.

That drive in silence felt oddly inspiring. There was an absence of something more than sound – an absence of immaterial things. What used to be a fear of awkward silences became instant gratification from a brief moment of introspection. That morning I practiced my internal monologue and it’s not as laughable as it sounds. I was reacquainting myself with my thoughts and feelings. Instead of reading someone’s rant online or getting flooded by the news, my life was simple again as it should be.